Letting Go

I wrote a few days ago about being perceived as a villain by my long ago step family. This news was brand new to me as i’ve not had contact with them in 11 years or so.  I know I need to let it go. I have no control over the situation and forcing myself […]

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Coming Down

I do not know if it was the vacation, the holidays, or the drama, but I have not stopped eating, except to sleep, for the last 10 days!! I am going to be sorely punished tomorrow when I go to work out. … punished by myself, to be clear, not my trainer. I have at […]

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My family has a healthy dose of drama just like any. I had very branched family tree. My parents divorced when I was 8. When I was away at summer camp at 12, my dad decided to get remarried. It wasn’t important for me to be involved or even present, apparently. I had met her […]

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Santa Guilt

I am finding myself feeling guilty and almost ashamed of how much Santa has brought the kids this year. I hope i’m not alone in this. Growing up, we didnt have a whole lot. I never felt deprived on Christmas, but picking things from the Sears catalog was always a giant waste of time for […]

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Some things i’ve learned from my trip to Whistler: 1. There are not a lot of big people/big’uns/ plus size people/chubsters/Snow Rhinos in the snow.  2. Everything is cardio-hence #1 3. Make sure if you are representing the Snow Rhinos, you do not slip and fall in The Village  4. Bring EVERYthing because if you […]

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There are certain markers throughout life. Time markers, actual locations, music, etc. When I hear Def Leppard or Skid Row, i’m immediately back in Jr High. The class, the (few) friends I had. The sunny So Cal days, the itchy Catholic school skirt.  When I see or hear about a Ren Faire, i remember vividly […]

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I decided to record this because there are few times I can point to a specific happening and declare, “That was a proud moment as a mom. I did something pretty damn cool.” I’ve already said we’ve all been living in a frustration bubble lately. Today, after my son freaks out over video games I […]

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Funkin Holidays

I have been in a funk since around Dec 1. I know this is a common time of year for lots of prozac Rxs, but that’s not why. I blame my kids. I feel as though since exactly the first of December they have been possessed. My son proclaimed he had been woken around midnight […]

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Crushing It

There are certain topics that set my teeth on edge when it comes to my kids. Things that, for whatever reason, I am not comfortable discussing with them. Over their lives this list has somehow become shorter and longer. When my son was old enough to recognize his wiener and ask what it was, I […]

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