Toe Jam

I really wish I was one of those moms who relished the care and keeping of her giant children. I sometimes wish I took enjoyment out of tending to and nursing them, but I just don’t. I find it incredibly taxing on my patience, I’m an anxious mess most of the time, and I always […]

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weirdness

I am not a morning person. This year I have to not be a morning person for an extra hour, as I’ve crossed over from an elementary school setting to a middle school. Kids have to be up and functioning and ready to attend in a classroom by 7:30am. This means I have to be […]

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Trying to Fit

Aging is interesting. I realized a few months ago that I am currently the age my stepmom was when I thought she was old. Like grandma old. I can still picture her not-so-fashionable short gray curly hair cut. Her lack of fashion sense -likely because of fashion options in plus size clothes in the 90’s […]

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Random update

Some random bits to remember later on about this first week of the new school year. The big one is a junior and the little is a sixth grader. I am in middle school for the first time. Kid #1 who spent the last three months of sophomore year in PJ pants – AT SCHOOL […]

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Working To Relax

I found myself with a week alone and an empty credit card before school/work starts, so I decided to take myself on a solo trip! This is out of my comfort zone, but I needed some recuperation from the stress of this particular summer. I found a great deal on a spa getaway so I […]

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August Panic

I have to write a new post just so I am not tempted to go back and re-read the last one. It’s been three days and the sight of my lost Barney brings all the tears right back. So I’m switching the channel for myself. It’s roughly mid-August right now. Our schools go back September […]

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The sad part

Let me tell you the story of Barney Rubble, my corgi mix rescue. Roughly thirteen years ago my little family went looking for a rescue at the local pet store. Out front was a gaggle of dogs in pens waiting to be adopted. In one pen was a long dark mix that would stand on […]

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Woof

It has been a rough few weeks trying to grow whole, kind, thoughtful, decent human beings who make good choices because it’s the right choice, not just because someone told them to. And I’m doing it at my emotional lowest. I have so little right now in terms of effort, energy, or motivation. My youngest […]

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Take Up Space

I have been issued a challenge by my therapist: “Take Up Space. Literally, take up more space.” I feel I am not alone in being a forty-something mom, wife (though separated at the moment), professional, who considers a billion factors before getting around to prioritizing something for myself. I grew up being alone a lot […]

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Spitballin’

Ok. Feeling helpless, and I detest feeling helpless. While the genius women of color, lawyers, congresswomen, indigenous women and boomers who have all had to fight for equality before now take the lead and march us into a current decade, I have to do something. Here are some ideas… some might be terrible, but hey, […]

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